William Fitzsimmons & Priscilla Ahn - I Don't Feel It Anymore

[Track 2 from the album The Sparrow and the Crow]
"The wrongdoer opens with an enigmatic confession laced with grief and remorse. The betrayed and wounded spouse attempts to reconcile her emotional losses against her years invested into the relationship. The hurting and the sorrow overwhelm both, and they acknowledge the tenuous state of their love in the absence of trust.

In each other’s company the couple dwells in an apparently inescapable eddy of sorrow. Unable to find solid footing to escape the whirlpool of loss and betrayal each regretfully surrenders to the abyss of loneliness where they can experience occasional moments without unremitting declarations of a dying relationship."  

While this may describe more or less of what has happened to my own relationship, I feel less of an emotional or personal connection to its uncanny lyrics and more of a sense of appreciation for the haunting beauty of the song as a whole--how it captures the essence of apathy, despair, melancholy, regret, and resignation.  This disconnection may stem from my lack of regret, which allows for the blossoming of hope and possibility as I turn toward a new direction in life.  Still, the poet in me has always loved the line, "We'll fall just like stars being hung by only string..."  It's a really beautiful song.   

Hold on this will hurt more than anything has before

What it was, what it was, what it was

I've brought this on us more than anyone could ignore

What I've done, what I've done, what I've done

I've worked for so long just to see you mess around

What you've done, what you've done, what you've done

I want back the years that you took when I was young

I was young, I was young but it's done

Oh, take it all away

I don't feel it anymore

Oh, take it all away

Oh, take it all away

I don't feel it anymore

Oh, take it all away

We'll fall just like stars being hung by only string

Everything, everything, here is gone

No map can direct how to ever make it home

We're alone, we're alone, we're alone

Oh, take it all away

I don't feel it anymore

Oh, take it all away

Oh, take it all away

I don't feel it anymore

Oh, take it all away